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My birthday. In ten days. I don't want to have a big fuss over it because I know I shouldn't want it. I'm going to a Catholic student retreat that weekend ...

I just wish these stomach cramps would go away. This morning I woke feeling sick and sore. I have some stubborn food last night that didn't come up easily. ...

There is someone who I quite miss talking to... Used to be my best friend but unfortunately things ended up very sadly and I still miss my dear friend. ...

So I was put back on the tube a few days ago, and I've yet to get my feeding supplies, so I'm extremely anxious and I've been losing weight still. I just ...

Tags: anorexia, ng tube, residential, residential treatment

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I've gone from not drinking and purging the whole summer to either drinking or purging every day.

My parents came to visit me in San Francisco for the weekend. It was really nice to have them, truly. I haven't bothered at all to meet anyone here ...

I'm not eating tomorrow. I fucking give up. I FUCKING give up.

Since I've even had restrictive thoughts! I thought I was cured for good! The thing about me and recovery though is I get FAT FAT FAT if I'm not constantly ...

A little over a year ago, after my second stress fracture in less than a year, I finally got it through my thick skull that I [I]had[/I] to gain weight. ...

Had an anxiety attack today while on the way to the grocery store. Surprisingly, it wasn't about food. I just felt so dirty and useless and tossed aside ...

Tags: anorexia, sexual abuse, sexual assault

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