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The first two weeks of this semester have been a mess for me. I've basically spent them drinking excessively, cutting, starving, b/p-ing when possible, ...

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well so far “recovery” is going super fabulously. managed one freaking day before caving and b/p-ing. i’m not giving up yet, and i’m focusing on the fact ...

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One of the other people who lives in the hostel I'm in caught on to the whole bulimia thing, probably heard me puking a few too many times. Whatever. ...

Just a bit down I guess. Get a message today from a program staff telling me I've missed 6 classes which is way above the limit and do I have an explanation ...

I'm getting really aggravated by my friend. She means well, but all she's doing is making things worse. I don't think she has any idea about the bulimia ...

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I will not gain weight from 3 days of eating. I will not gain weightt in 3 days. I will not gain weight in 3 days.

Ugh I keep trying to ...

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I am so over you. Found myself actually crying on the bathroom floor while on the verge of passing out and just like, I can't do this anymore. Anything ...

man, i usually don't enjoy binges at all, they're frantic shoveling and not tasting the food and all that typical crap. but tonight i actually took my ...

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So does everyone else. Every time I open my mouth I piss someone off. Maybe if there were less of me, I wouldn't annoy everyone so much.

So as the last leg of my vacation, I'm in Stockholm for 4 days. The first 5 days of the trip I ate nothing, but I've spent the last several days binging. ...

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