kodachrome

then again, was there any winning today to begin with?

8:30 am - quit my run halfway through because I don't feel well. [b][i]I am a fat ...

In every group I've worked with, I've always gotten the same feedback. "Exceptional work ethic, but be careful of burn-out, and stop working after ...

My parents came to visit me in San Francisco for the weekend. It was really nice to have them, truly. I haven't bothered at all to meet anyone here ...

A little over a year ago, after my second stress fracture in less than a year, I finally got it through my thick skull that I [I]had[/I] to gain weight. ...

hell yeah let's just pull an all-nighter crying hysterically over work. I rarely cry, but this is just going to hell

i don't even know ...

some sloppily-written thoughts on month 1 out of 3 in San Francisco:

[B]Therapy[/B]: I lasted a grand total of three weeks in therapy before ...

Growing up, I was always called an "old soul." Adults would marvel over 5th-grade me, religiously reading the newspaper and prattling on about ...

Sometimes I really do wonder why I'm still alive. I exist in this perpetual tunnel of ennui. It's not so unbearable that I seriously muse ending it ...

“I don’t have an eating disorder; if I wanted to eat more, I could. Everything’s under control.” So I told myself. I believed it, too. For a while, ...

An entire case of soda a day to fill my stomach’s void. Coffee to keep my constantly shivering body warm. Twenty hours of sleep a week, sleepless nights ...