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it's super comforting having a date. every time things get overwhelming, and I start down the spiral of loathing and sadness and despair, I can say "is ...

That's how I feel right now. Just ugh.
The purging gets easier and easier. The binge food was only appealing for all of 10 minutes tonight. Which ...

Tags: bulimia, fml

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I wanted to be mutuals with my little sister on Tumblr so I can't brainvom over there anymore.
I like to chronical my descents into madness to ...

the title is a lie
I don't even know why I'm doing this. Why I'm sharing anything other than cryptic hints as is my forte. I guess it's just nice ...

Tags: bulimia, depression, kinda wanna die, relapse

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I've been watching The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmit and that line really spoke to me. I can stand just about anything for 10 seconds. Then I just have to ...

Uuuugh it's been a long time since I did brainvom. It's cool though, a lot of the shit is stuff I can talk to Boyfriend about so that's a relief.
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Things went pretty ok foodwise at work. I stayed pretty busy. Didn't get bored, phone didn't die, didn't have to go outside much (thank GOD it was balls ...

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That was my first thought. The second was "what am I b/ping on" before I remembered I'm supposed to eat like a human today.

We'll ...

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At the very least, knowing the root of the problem should keep me from losing it the next week or so.

I am DOWN. There's no reason for ...

Tags: b/p, bulimia, fml, i am shit, personal

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It. Is. Infuriating. The complete lack of hunger queues is always a giant pain in my ass, I have none, I always want to eat. Aaaaalwaaaaays.
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