mrsmemyselfandi

I woke up this morning, hoped on the scale, lost .6 pounds from yesterday. I was surprised even though I had a massive dinner. Still hate family dinners. Today I was planning on fasting, but when I woke up... I just didn't care. I don't know. I felt good about my body even though I didn't do anything. I guess I was just happy I lost nearly 5 pounds in 2 days and that I didn't gain from yesterday. Tonight is Mexican night.... one of my favorite where we have all this food and crap... I didn't eat anything til about 3 when I had a piece of pizza (300) and a cupcake (250?) and now I am stuffed and feel like I am going to explode! I don't purge and don't plan on starting anytime soon and so there is no way for me to get it out. I am amazed because just a few days ago I would of eaten that and still have been hungry. And amazingly... I am not beating myself up about it one bit. Usually I would of started crying my head off but I don't even feel bad.......I have to eat dinner tonight as usual but I don't know if I am because for the second time... my excuse of "my stomach hurts" might actually be true. I'm hoping I go back to the normal "trying to lose weight person"...I just don't know what has gotten in to me! I'm so confused. Hope I continue to lose because school is starting again and it is really hard for me to lose weight on school days ):

Sorry I am just blabbing here but.... good by~!

[edit] ba

Oh my gosh...I am so mad. This is after I wrote that /\. I found out I get to work tonight, that means I get to skip dinner! I'M SO PISSED! I TOTALLY COULD OF FASTED TODAY BUT NO! I had to go and eat 800 calories because I was all freaked out and stuff. Geez. I ruined a perfectly good fasting day and I am so pissed off at myself right now. I can't fast until the next school break now.