RoseBlossom112

So, day 1 of my 7 day fast starts in exactly 10 minutes. I'm determined to do it this time, I'm determined to loose more and more weight. I have to.
I hate myself so much right now, I've eaten way too much and if I didn't I probably could of at least lost a pound or two so far.
The only reason why I hate myself so much right now is because, I hate how I look. I'm always picking at myself, asking people if I'm fat, comparing myself to other people. The only reason why I hate myself, is because of how I look and that really needs to change.

I have the most amazing family who are so friendly and funny, I have the most amazing friend ever, but all of this is getting in the way of anything happening between me and him, and I don't want to loose him, nor gain weight.

I need to loose weight and control it and I will do it.
Day 1 starts tomorrow, water and gum that's all. Hopefully I will be 15 pounds down by Sunday when I'm supposed to be going with "the most amazing friend ever" and getting tattoos together.
I really don't want to look like a huge fat whale when I next see him. I know I'm really concerned about my looks and everything, but that will never change. I'd rather be concerned about my looks but be HAPPY with them, than be concerned about them and hate looking in the mirror.

Everything is really suckish at the moment, but my fast will change that, and hopefully I will get past day 2, if I don't I have no idea what I'm going to do.

5 minutes to go until day 1, I'm going to do it.