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This speaks to me on a deeply personal level.

I can determine my mental state by the state of my living areas. Right now, being on an upswing with proper antidepressants, I've been keeping on top...

as I'm buying peach schnapps and a bag of gummi worms:

~some old fat man
"Now that's my kind of dinner, gummi worms and liquor!"

Me: (internally screaming)
"Hell yeah" *wink*

Music is life and I deeply detest being in a state of mental clarity

I expected to be dead 5 years ago. I haven't accomplished anything in that time aside from dig deeper and deeper holes. I've...

29. Bulimic for 15 years. I expected to be dead before 25, but here I am, massive distended stomach and ability to eat a literal 5 lbs of food in one sitting

I never thought it would get this far....

A single binge used to run me between 20/50 USD

now that we're Fucking Poor I binge on bulk groceries

every week is 60-70$ in food, but there is literally

NOTHING

left by payday

sexy

Hi babe, so so glad to see you still alive. I wondered about you even when I left the site.

Guess what I completely sympathize with the alcoholism, vodka is also my poison of choice and I...

Hey guys and gals. I don't know if anyone I know is even still around, but I'm back.

Recovery failed. Again. Big fucking surprise to all, I'm sure.

And so, this bulimic trainwreck returns....

vod u crazy beeotch, I'm glad you're still alive. slightly surprised? yes. happy about the fact? all of it.

haven't touched that madness since the 5 days of Horror :D don't worry I'm making up for...

I'm mostly in the "what social life" basket, but I can usually feign normalcy for stuff like family gatherings or being taken out to bars and/or restaurants. With a few rare exceptions, the bingeing...

jesus fucking christ, I missed brain-vomming. I think it's gotta be one of those things you don't realize you need until it happens.

I am a disgusting fucking wreck. the face is slipping, the...

Leaning over you here
cold and catatonic,
I catch a brief reflection, what you could and might have been
it's your right, and your ability
to become
my perfect enemy

Wake up
and face me...

plz see thread title. response?

thank. fucking. god.

I show my tits for drastically less than minimum wage, consider it a good night when I don't leave owing money and no one's insulted/violated me. I have to tell people on a regular basis that no, the...

well, I'm off my tits for the umpteenth time in a row, it's official, it's alcoholism.

oh, good.

I can't strictly blame genetics, even if it IS predominant on the maternal side-- I could have...

Hi, honey. I'm a returning absentee and resident smartass/pool of sadsack.

I'll be 30 in just over a year. I've realized for 15 of those just what I'm doing to myself, even more in the last 4 or...

I just want to make everything not fucking hurt all the goddamn time. Drugs, alcohol and nicotine help a lot, but the addictions are a band-aid on a surgical cut, holding it together without fixing...

When vomit is just part of your daily routine, and about as notable as taking a shit

When your daily meal usually equates to three "normal" ones

When keeping anything down automatically means...

I was about to throw a pity party for myself, but I guess I'm too angry and disgusted to give a single shit about this fucking farce I call an existence, sure I could feel sorry for myself, or I...

I suppose I could try to sleep, but the brain won't shut up so I'll just keep smoking pot until it does

my own damn fault, but the numbness is so fucking addictive in and of itself

not to...

welp I officially took someone under my wing

badgering them to eat, drink water, ect. when they're sloppy-drunk

girl ended up making money, and I left in the green, so good shit

fuck yo,...

oh, fun times, come to find that a full dermal gash leaves the same scar whether you stitch it or not

I mean, yeah, I got hella lucky that it didn't get infected, but now I'm bashing my head...

so I usually stay stone cold sober on my days off, but the last two...just couldn't hang

slamming straight vodka alone, #goodatlife

oh good. I officially have a problem. Well, a new one.
...

my life is a farcical bad joke and I'll be the first to admit it
could I get any more stereotypical if I tried? doubtful tbh
tfw you're actually, wholly, legitimately ready to die, drive into the...

welp
I went to a different bar
it's been...acceptable
I'm not the thinnest, I'm not the whitest, but I AM the tallest, thinnest, whitest bitch if we put it all together
so money is decent
making...

Hey, y'all
just wanted to verify that I'm still alive
Did my yearly "drop off the face of the planet" deal, alienated some friends, as per usual, so good at life
NEwayz
Good to see my familiar...