somthing different..

[wish_icould_look@myself]

So ive been sick for the last week..which really sucked compleatly..but i lost about 3 pounds..i was just so disgusted with myself..because the only thing that i could think of while laying in bed was not to getting better but how much weight i was loosing..ive become obsessed and i dont like it..i have a scale that i swear i get on whenever i see it just to make sure the number hasnt changed..i just want to throw it against the wall and watch it break into a billion peices but i wont because then i wouldnt know exactly where i am and that would be worse...im just so tiered of the same thing..

[bratyimp]

i step on the scale twice a day..
when i get up in the morning, and before i go to bed..

[normalll]

I barly ever look at my weight, last time i checked i was about ***lbs or something. Secondly, i dont at all care about my weight.. i eat a good amount (as in 3 full meals a day, not low fat or anything.. normal food). Third, i pretty much dont gain weight, i can eat pizza every day for a full week and nothing. I'm very happy with my self and my life

[buckleupbuttercup]

i don't even own a scale, it's mildly upsetting, but with my mother's weight issues, she feels uncomfortable with one in the house, i might just have to buy my own.

[zombiecake]

I only use a scale to make sure I'm not gaining. I check every day but it only matters to me what it is each week. For me its alot more depressing to see my measurements. if I'm not losing, it makes me really depressed and it's a good motivation for increasing my exercise.

Today I ***edit**and i did more work out than usual. I'm feeling alot better.

[onelastwish]

I'm sorry. I know the feeling though. We have two scales. One of the ones that are common and one of the ones like at a doctors office. Well the latter is outside. I would find any excuse what-so-ever to go outside 3-6 times a day. Finally they caught on and told me they were going to throw it out if I kept using it so I stopped. Scales are obsessive, I would weigh myself anywhere. The gym, the doctors office where my mother works, those peice of crap ones at the mall, friends houses, even while drunk. It was a mess.

I think that was the thing that was hardest for me when I was put into inpatient, they wouldn't let me see my weight. Then at outpatient, no weight, another hospital no weight. For three months I had no idea what I weighed, and to be honest I didn't care, the mirror was my new best friend. Now I only weigh myself when I feel the need to.

It's a hard habit to break. My advice would be to hide it perhaps? Or make it harder to access. But then again it all depends on how driven you are.

Goodluck dearest.