Freedom!!!

[country_chick]

I'll just give you my story. (A lot more simple that way..)
Okay my eating disorder was Anorexia. It wasn't exactly emm... "full blown" I wasn't vomiting (thinkin about doin it) but wasn't there yet. I was like this about a month. A whole month I didn't eat, didn't go near the kitchen I just exercised until I practically passed out... my grandma noticed that my face a lot of the time was chalk white and my eyes would grow big when they would suggest eating. Everyone except maybe one or two noticed that something definitely wasn't right. So they started to pray for me (I didn't know that they were I was just recently told) I got sick and weak one night (not self induced either) I guess that was a wake up call... sorta... then one night I was praying (my walk with God did not fall during this) and I was askin the Lord what was wrong with me (I was in denial people) and He showed me. And my words EXACTLY were these:
"Oh heck no! In the name of Jesus I command this to go."
The next morning I woke up and I felt hungry (as normally) BUT THE CHANGE: I didn't ignore it and shrug it off I practically rushed to the kitchen and I ate so much I thought that I was going to pass out from eating (sounding like mia maybe?) but the thing is it wasn't a binge. I was starved half to death. Come around lunch time: I was partly full from breakfast and I ate a lot again but not as much. And then at supper I ate and ate and ate. None of it purged. I WAS HEALED!!! The Lord had healed me. Now imagine this: Ana for a month and miserable and IN DENIAL OF ALL THINGS *rolly eyes* and then the Lord heals me because of my faith that He would, A WHOLE LOT A PRAISE TO HIM GOIN' ON TOOK PLACE!!!
Since I am a Christian the devel fights me constantly and tries to put it back on me EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. It is miserable. I did relapse twice but only for one day and I figured what was and I got all my teachers and people I truely trusted to pray for me. And the prayers went through and today I am a steady size 6 almost into a size 7 and I'm anxious to see if I'm going to fit into size 7 skirt. I love it when I gain a pound it puts a smile on my face. And if that isn't proof enough that I'm healed what is? *wink*
Just a word of encouragement for everyone with an ED. God can help you, you aren't alone in this world even if you think you are. When I say "aren't alone" I don't mean others like you. I mean you have a Father above in Heaven looking down upon you yearning for you to come to Him and cry out to Him for help. If you are willing He can deliver you. If you are sick of the monster inside of you tell God how you feel. It may take some time... you might not get healed right then *snaps fingers to make a point* but you will receive healing if you truely want it. Please don't give up, there is someone who cares. If you need support e-mail me, send me a personal message and I'll give you the e-mail. But please don't give up!!! God loves you. I'll be praying for all of you in this forum. <3Rebecca<3

[model]

there is no need to ask for gods help, we can all help our selves, if thats what we want

[xAnaWingsx]

This post was made by me on a different account, and no it didn't stop there. I was in denial there... extreme denial. If anyone is really wondering what happened....

That next morning after that I continued on with the anorexia behavior and six months later started purging, passing out, blacking out, blah blah blah. Went through recovery for about a year, and now I've relapsed and I could care less about recovery and about the people begging me to stop being an idiot. I say "screw them" because it's my life, my body and I'll do with it as I please. Whoever has a problem with that should get over it.

[Shandy]

So u wrote all that? n then now you couldnt care less about it.
You sound like a different person!
So sad... ide never want ppl around me to feel unhappy because of the way i am.. girl ur crazy, and those ppl are the ones who love you most!

[Chew]

Sorry but that is the biggest roll of fat I have ever heard, the gods are not there & never will be there for you........... Only you can help yourself. Good luck. x

[FallenAngel321]

there is no need to ask for gods help, we can all help our selves, if thats what we want

agreed if they are supposedly 'all-knowing' and 'all-powerful' then why do we have OD's in the 1st place??

[louise17]

That is the most BS i have ever heard in my life. I agree with fallenangel321 if there are Gods why are ED's even here?!? It doesnt even sound like you was Ana, "I love it when I gain a pound it puts a smile on my face" what is that all about? I dont even want to think about putting on a pound let alone smile about it! Dont you think If God was the answer to recovery everyone with an ED or any problem in fact would pray! Some people are twisted using sites like this to try and preach.

[jeffbobs]

There is a none godly explaination behind this.....You admitted to yourself what was what you saw as your "problem" and inturn tryed to fix it.

No matter what, if you do or dont believe in god. you do it yourself.

[sarah_ann]

I need help recovering from Bulimia..........can anyone offer any help advice? Or even just a buddy to talk to??????

Thanks I'd love to talk to someone who can relate to it!!!

xxxxx

p.s. about the religious comments above, I used to be religious but drifted from it, to a certain extent I do believe tho, I've seen prayer work and it's worked for me in the past. But I completely get why people don't believe too, cos I've felt let down all the same.

Hate religious debates cos they are so complicated and its diff for everyone I do respect it tho.

[i.hate.my.life.45]

I stopped believing in God a long time ago.