They are starting to notice..

[Falling_under]

My family and my mom are starting to notice my eating habits and the fidgeting. I have this big italian family and we all sit at the table and eat dinner together. Soo... i've been pretty good at making it seem like i ate a lot but i think they are catching on. It could just be that i feel guilty but i don't know. They keep asking me if i ate. And my mom ...ugh.. she thinks i'm depressed and wanted to know what i was writing one day (I write down what i eat and the calories in a little book) i kind of snapped then realized and said sorry just tired. Also..a few nights ago i started crying like an idiot because i had close to 580 cal. and lately i was under 500 and it freaked me out. The only thing i could think was now i gained weight. it's so strange though how it all just suddenly happened. I can't figure out what triggered it.
Anyway... anyone else kind of dealing with issues like this?

[LiquidSkies]

Oh yeah.

I moved back with my mother because of my depression (it wasn't safe to let me live alone) and she's also aware of my ED.

AND FUCK did I just screw up big time. She came home from work and asked if I've eaten anything and I said yes, bread, without pausing to think about it.

Well there weren't any bread left and she knew it. So now I'm being watched like some little kid and she's threating to call my doctor and blah blah yadda yadda...

...so annoying! And I'm so angry to myself for saying that I've eaten before checking if there's even food in the house! I ALWAYS check! Stupid me!

I feel sorry for you having to eat with your family. I mean, it's so much easier to throw away food when there's no one around
And I hate to eat with someone watching anyways...

At least you're not alone with your problem - if that makes you feel any better

[Lov3-2-perfection]

My family and my mom are starting to notice my eating habits and the fidgeting. I have this big italian family and we all sit at the table and eat dinner together. Soo... i've been pretty good at making it seem like i ate a lot but i think they are catching on. It could just be that i feel guilty but i don't know. They keep asking me if i ate. And my mom ...ugh.. she thinks i'm depressed and wanted to know what i was writing one day (I write down what i eat and the calories in a little book) i kind of snapped then realized and said sorry just tired. Also..a few nights ago i started crying like an idiot because i had close to 580 cal. and lately i was under 500 and it freaked me out. The only thing i could think was now i gained weight. it's so strange though how it all just suddenly happened. I can't figure out what triggered it.
Anyway... anyone else kind of dealing with issues like this?

Hey! i have the same exact problem... just that i throw up... and i really dont know wt 2 do... im new 2 this so i wrote 2 u... im italian 2 thing is that my mum asked me if i was puking and i swore i wasnt she hasnt heard me or nthng but evry day after dinner i go 2 the toilet straight away and i lost so much w8 but im eating like a pig... she told me i cant use the toilet strt after dinner n i dono wt 2 do... do u no any other way i can puke... after i worked so hard i cant just gain the weight straight away
xx

[figureskater]

perfection, well I guess you could throw up in a plastic bag or something in your room and throw it away. just an idea. I've tried so many times to throw up, but I just gag and nothing comes up. *sigh