Panic... please help..

[LiquidSunnshine]

I HAD to go out to breakfast this morning with a group of my friends... I tried so hard to make them let me stay back but they refused. I claimed I couldn't eat because I didn't have any money and they offered to pay... I managed to only have a glass fo freshly squeezed orange juice which totaled to 167calories...

My daily limit is 500 right now but I feel like I am going to explode from it... I am spiraling downwards and I can't seem to stop it. All I know is everyday it's getting harder and harder to put anything into my system. I feel like I want to die anytime I have to and I keep getting dizzy and sometimes my heart feels weird and I hate it because it feels like it's skipping beats but I'm not even thin so I can't be having health complications and I just... I guess I'm just scared because I'm starting to feel so out of control and I want my control back which makes no sense since now I'm actually controlling what I eat even more than before... more and more days that aren't supposed to be fast days are turning into them whether I want them too or not and I started purging again recently..

So I guess what I'm asking for is any advice on how to make myself calm down a bit and be able to feel more in control of what I'm doing and eating since even a glass fo juice makes me feel out of control...

[Suzy]

Hey hun

Don't know if it will help but I kinda know how you feel, up until the weekend I was purging everyting I ate from a full meal to couple of strawberries as I was so paranoid about it all and it was out of my control i just did it. At the weekend I had a bad couple of days and ended up feeling really bad, I also started to feel really ill and like yourself and I now put it down to the purging the constant trying to make myslef sick made me feel awful.
I have not limited myself to 600 cals a day maximum and am keeping to this. Now I am eating again I have started losing as your body needs something food wise in it. I have been eating loads of salad and fruit and this seems to be working.
If I have more cals in the morning I just break the rest down during the day so I still come in under.
For example you had the fruit juice at 167, I would the have 100 cal salad (usually lettuce, cucumber, slice of chicken, pepper and poss a 6 cal dressing) for lunch and 150-200 salad (same a lunch but might add carrot or beetroot) for tea with a small amount for the evening where might have a piece of chicken slice at 9 cal or a small glass of juice. This would then come in under and I've eaten it and I know I'm ok so I don't purge.

Hope this helps Pm me if you need any support

Suzy
xxx

[annabella]

sorry to hear things are so hard sweet.

personally i cant limit my self to less than about 650 cals a day because i get very light headed and dizzy and went through a fainting patch a while a go because of it so instead i make sure i eat little and often. i also find that this helps me avoid binging in the evening as i dont get so hungry.

hope this is of some help.
take care
xx