why does my friend trigger me so much ?

[gainingcontrol]

(not sure if some of this threads content will trigger )

i need help with this topic fast ,
basically i have a friend , she dosnt have an ed but everything she does seems to trigger me.
i find myself making sure that i eat less than her when we are togther
when she does better than me in school i restrict
people like her more than they like me and it just seems that shes perfect
shes also prettier than me ( others would say shes not but in my eyes she is)
i feel inferior to her in everysingle way possible
shes better than me at everything and i find this sooo triggering because i feel that she may be able to do lots of things better than me but she dosnt restrict binge purge etc
so in that sense there is something i can do that she cant.
it just seems like the past week or so that ive started to realise that it is her that is my trigger and i dont know what to do about it all and these thoughts in my head are affecting the way i behave around her

ive never had a "goal weight" , my goal has always been to be thinner than her
and now that i am trying soo hard to get over this ed i find myself slipping back to my old ways because she triggers me so much.

please help
advice ?


feel free to email me


thanks very much

[jeffbobs]

It would seem like your jealous of her....which i know its obvious but i have to say it. you feel like you have to battle against her to be alpha female. and when your with her you feel beta(second)

Its hard to say how to fix....obviously just not hanging around her would be the quick fix method. But i very very sure your better than her at alot of things, you just dont think they are important, or you haven't really thought about them. It might be because you wish to be just like her. you want what she has.

now if i could get more information on the things you think she is better than you at, i could maybe explain more. but at a guess, im guessing they aint things that can be proven that they are better than you at.....just something you feel she is because of attention she gets and what not.

Sometimes just accepting the fact allows you to become better, like trying to attract someone, you try and give them signs like your obessed you scare them away.....you take it easy and relax and they seem to show some interest. sort of like taking an outside view of your actions.

but dont try and make yourself look better than her by starving or anything, its something no side will win until someone gets hurt

[jeffbobs]

By the way if ya wanna get hold of me i have MSN, now ive got work now for the next 2 hours but, if ya add me and im online when i get back you can talk to me for aslong as ya want.....its just good to have someone to listen to ya problems even if they dont talk back....just to air them


Edit: hmmm yeah my hotmail adress would work......gohan00760@hotmail.com