Former anorexic coming back to Ana

[figureskater]

Hi, my name is Lisa. I'll try to keep my story brief. I had always been thin, but at age 12 I hit puberty and put on some weight. I freaked out and went on a diet. It progressed into anorexia. My lowest weight was 84 pounds (at 5'5). I uploaded a few pictures here to show what I looked like. They're in an album, hope you guys can figure out how to access them. I ate as little as I could get away with (my mom made me eat). My chest was 29 inches and my waist was 20 1/2 inches sucking in. I weighed a minimum of twice a day, often far more.

I decided to "recover" temporarily when I realized I was stunting my growth. What I mean was I ate more so I could grow in height. I fully intended to go back to Ana when I was full grown. After gaining a bit of weight, I had my first period. It was extremely irregular and I went over a year w/o one. When I was 13/14, I weighed mid 90s (5'6). I still weighed myself every day, but I would not say I was anorexic then. Then, I started binging. It wasn't bad at first, but it progressed to eating a whole bag of candy at once sometimes. I tried to throw up, but never succeeded.

Needless to say, I've gained weight. I'm now *gasp* 124 lbs. I'm about 5'7 1/2. I still thought I was fat even at my thinnest, so you can only imagine how I feel now! I figure skate and I see some REALLY skinny girls every day. I constantly compare myself to them. Even my mom weighs less than I do! I came here to try to find motivation to get back on track

Thinner is the winner!

[Lady=Libra]

hey im the total same as you so don't think your alone. last year (when i was 14) the lowest weight i was ever at was 108. i was pretty happy at the quick spead that i was getting lighter. i was'nt getting my period, and i was totally fine with that. but of course i wanted to lose more weight. my mom noticed how skinny i was getting, she made me eat. now, at 15 im like 126 at the moment. i want to weigh 105 or less. it just now takes control.

[figureskater]

Hi, lady libra. thanks for replying. since we are similar weight and have observant moms do you want to be "ana buddies"? I'll message you my email address. my first goal is 110. who knows what it will be after that. you know how it is. I'm thinking maybe an "ultimate" goal weight of 98 pounds (2 digits!). but considering I still wasn't happy at 85 lbs, I already have my doubts that I will be satisfied at 98 lbs. just wondering, how tall are you?

[Lady=Libra]

hey!! im 5 9. yeah i know im pretty tall lol. i would give you my email but my mom wont let me on her computer, and my brother broke mine. so how am i replying?? a few years back i got a PSP. it connects to the internet but i cant check my hotmail. anyways we can still be ana buddys. just send me a message on here until i can get my computer fixed. lol my life sucks right now.

[figureskater]

I'm jealous! I wish I were 5'9! Then I'd have a better shot a being a model. Haha, omg that really sucks! Hope u get your computer fixed soon.

[Lady=Libra]

lol yeah it does suck! my main goal in life is to be a fashion model. at school ppl tell me that i look like tyra or beyonce by mostly a barbie doll. i think its funny because i hate how i look right now. i wish i weighed 105. but i would be really happy if i could be in the doubles!!!

[figureskater]

people tell me I should be a model pretty often. unfortunately for me, runway models r supposed to be 5'9- 6 feet. i can change my weight, but there's not much i can do about my height.

I take it u have dark skin? I'm reallllly white and wish i had brown skin.

[Lady=Libra]

i wouldn't say dark but more of a light tan color. i guess its because my dad is havily mixed with chinese. mostly the kids at school think im from cuba and they speak spanish to me lol!!