yesterday my boyfriend phoned me and told me that a girl at my college who knows him (i told her about my eating, shes the only person who really knows) and we had an argument so she told him!!! He said hes really worried and he does love me but until i get help and get it sorted he just wants to be friends. i dont know what to do. part of me thinks "great, you were only eating so he wouldnt know, now you dont have to eat, brilliant you can get thinner!!!" but then part of me thinks, i dont wanna lose him i love him so much we have been together for 5 months now. but if i get help i feel that im letting people make me fat and taking the control out of my life. any help anyone?