sucidal today

[willpower]

god i f**kin hate myself. i'm such a fat bitch and have just carved that into my thigh.......... i wish i was dead. then all this would go oaway. i'd stop being a burden to everyone and i'd stop feeling so disguisting and fat.i hate ana so much today but hate myself more- wish i could lose weight, nothing has changed still heavy and fat. i'm hungry and i cant do this anymore. god i hate myself and everyone around me. wish everyone in my life would stop pushing me.

sorry for my rant. worst day today i eva had....... ignore me xxx

[Miss_Holly]

I'm sorry you feel that way, I hate those self hating days, had one two days ago... when I have them I end up taking it out on my bf and it makes me depressed how it effects our relationship, I end up with a ton of guilt and feel like a psycho, what helps me is just to cry and cry.

Looks like you weigh nothing though, 40,5 kg. You've almost reached your goal, don't be so hard on yourself... I know you don't feel skinny but everyone weighing 40 is skinny, but I know me saying that doesn't mean much. I wish you all the best. xxx

[annabella]

hey hun, sorry to hear your feeling so bad. Is you're leg ok?

try to spend some time looking after yourself, when i feel like that it always makes me better just to curl up in a duvet and hide from the world.

Sorry i'm not much help at the moment, i'm feeling kind of the same. Just know we are here for you.
xx

[meltingaway]

Sorry to hear you're having a bad day

Me too. Nice to not feel totally alone in feeling like this, though I know it doesn't help much.

I agree with ab - maybe have hot bath & just hide for a bit xxx

[willpower]

thanks for your support guys. leg is ok, i havent self harmed for years. i've lost f*ck all this week, feel like such a fat lump gonna try so much harder next week. i dont konw why but im having a week where i actually want to eat!!! does that mean a miracle has happened and im cured? xxx although i had to cut myself to cope!