Hi - I'm new; thought I'd make an intro.
Right now I don't know how I feel. I'm not happy with my weight. I'm angry that I've gained in treatment again relatively recently and then I'm angry with myself for adding onto that. I restrict, purge, binge, purge, restrict, purge, etc.. You get it, I'm sure. I've been diagnosed with bulimia and then probably anorexia b/p subtype but by that point I never cared to ask. Right now I'm "healthy" and no longer really underweight and am eating.. but really I'm eating enough to please those around me and to be functional. I just don't know. I want to be healthy but I want to be smaller!! And the ED is comforting. I'm 23, I also feel too old to be stuck on this.
Anyways, hello!