That even though you don't eat, Your eating disorder is eating you alive! I dont know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it sure does to me. I always feel like i am buried in all this mess. Sometimes i wish it was easier and more secretive. Why does eating have to be so important to people? I'm so tired of that being the only thing people ask me about! I wish i could be left alone to do whatever i want! They should be proud anyways, I've lost 20 lbs. In less than 2 weeks! WHOO WHOO! I hope that continues!