I began to cut myself at the age of 12, but last summer, my mum send me to the hospital for a "cure". It's been about ten months now but, two weeks ago, I relapsed like .... BADLY.
I mean, I was so mad at myself because I was purging and starving again. I tried EVERYTHING to stop myself but I just couldn't. I took of a badge of my bag, went to the toilet, and you know the rest ...
It's just ... the worst. Because, I don't know if now I will be able to hold myself ten months, I was so proud, the first two months were horrible. And now, I'll have to do it all again. It just makes me feel like shit, more than usual. And the more I feel bad about myself, the more I want to cut, of course ...