So self concious

[babygirl]

Hey, I've just turned 17 and have been in a relationship with my 19 year old boyfriend for almost 3 months now, which in my opinion isn't long at all. We were both in a relationship when we admitted we had feelings for each other, his had lasted 2 years, mine 6 months. His ex girlfriend has bulimia and is of a reasonable weight. My boyfriend is also of a reasonable weight. I am 5ft 8 and 9st 11.

When I was younger I was very thin. I was never taken to the doctors about it however my family thinks I was anorexic. In the past 2 years I have put on a reasonable amount of weight, obviously because I have been growing, but now that I am of a reasonable weight compared to how I was not too long ago I feel hideous and really fat. My boyfriend says he thinks I'm the perfect weight and not fat, however I find it hard to believe him as I am so uncomfortable with my weight.

For about 5 months I have been eating a lot less than I should however it hasn't seemed to make much of a difference so I have recently started taking diet pills called effigen, or effys.

Today after feeling really bad about myself I tried to purge however no matter how hard I tried I couldn't make myself throw up. I also read on this website about leaning over and squeezing your stomach, this didn't work either. Is there any other way to make myself throw up?

Thanks.