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[0__Imperfect_Angel__0]

ED-NOS makes me feel like a failure at life. I'm not normal, but I'm not anorexic or bulimic. It's so lame.
I need to lose weight rather desperately. I'm just hitting the end of a binge cycle and the beginning of a starve cycle.

[concretedisco]

I have EDNOS aswell. And yeah, it's weird not really knowing what of the two we are. I change between binging and purging, and starvation.
I feel like I need to loose weight desperately all the time, so mostly I do tend to starve myself, and it makes me feel better aswell.

[rantana90]

i had been diagnosed with ednos...and honestly? i hated it. that was 2 years ago and 3 months ago i was diagnosed with anorexia. i hated that i was so week i had to binge, and i hated the effects of purging. (bottles upon bottles of ipecac and tums can add up) so i switched. i have made a lot of progress, as far as i'm concerned. my friends are worried...but i'm almost positive that i'll know when enough is enough.

[ascetikitten]

I would definately say I'm ednos. I'm definately mental because of food and weight. I weigh a lot, but for my height, I'm skinnier than every girl I see aside from the underweight girls or the super fit girls, but my BDD makes me see something disgusting in the mirror. I know if I saw a girl with my body type I would think there's nothing wrong with her because it's not my size, it is what I see in the mirror. And I've never purged - I tried when I was a sophmore - I kept shoving a toothbrush down my throat but I guess I didn't hit my gag reflex and at that time I was really into self mutilation and I was really really depressed and that just made me feel worse because I thought "I'm trying to have an eating disorder and I can't even do THAT right" lol. I never had the self discipline to be anorexic but I would drink a lot and I wouldn't eat when I drank and I was too drunk to notice being hungry. I'd go through phases where I'd take crazy energy or diet pills and work out really really hard and then fall off that wagon. So I've kinda run the gamut of generally being dysfunctional and freaked out without actually becoming a full fledged diagnosis. If I had known about ipecac believe me, I would probably still be bulimic.

I mean, I know all females go through some sort of stress over body issues and have tried fads and yo yo diets and whatnot. I think it really becomes an ED or an EDNOS if you become hateful and/or abusive toward yourself.

The sad thing is, I don't trust myself with food. As in, I don't think I'm capable of making a decision of what to eat and what not to eat and it being the right decision. And that's pretty sad to me. Someone old enough to feed themselves not feeling they're capable of listening to their body and knowing when more is neccessary or when you've eaten too much. I think that is a form of disassociation. Disassociative Disorder is one thing I was diagnosed with. Which basically means you sometimes aren't "in" your body and feeling your emotional or physical feelings because you've disconnected your mind from your body which is a very normal reaction to trauma or abuse.