I can't take this anymore!!!!!

[blue*eyes]

I was doing so good. I was at a weight that made me feel "ok". You know no weight is ever ok, but I was dealing with it. In the past few weeks for some reason I've gained almost ten pounds!!!!!!!!! I'm so depressed! I can't take it anymore. I wrote in another thread how I was missing ana and mia so terribly. I don't know what to do . I just want to crawl in a corner and die. Why is it so easy to gain, but so hard to loose. I'm getting out of control. Everyone keeps telling me I look so much better with weight on me.
I HATE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wish everyone would just leave me alone!!! I want to be a size 2 again. I was happy there. (well, as happy as a bullemic could be) I'm up to a 6 and I feel like I'm a size 18!!!!!!! I don't know what I'm going to do. I can't take it!!!! Why can't I just be happy with me. I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. Everytime I catch a glimse of my self I want to punch it. I look so old and fat. I'm too hideous to do anything or go anywhere. I've been a 2 for so long that's all the clothes I have. When I go to put something on and it doesn't fit, all I do is cry. I've fallen the other way, I've lost touch with mia and I want her back! Where are you?

[country_chick]

First thing: Calm down WAY DOWN.

I know where you are coming from... only I wasn't mia I was ana. Now listen. I'm currently a size 6 and I'm almost into a 7. That isn't a *thinks* "fat" size. A "fat" size is 24 *winks* It is okay that you feel this way, just don't relapse. Well... try not to anyway *shifty eyes* I've relapsed 2 times. I don't know if you are a Christian or not... but let me tell ya it is the best thing in the world. God is so understanding... now if you are thinking He will make me see a counclor or something ridiciolous that I don't want to do, remember this: He won't make you... He (as in He HIMSELF) will help you through it.
*hugs*
I'll pray for you *smile*

[Ana.Red09]

Blue*Eyes I know exactly how ya feel!! I was miserable until I relapsed... I was in a size 8!! *shutters* I've managed to get back down to a size 4! But I want to be a size 0! I will just say this: If you wanna relapse that badly think about it, I mean really think about it first. Then if you are still positive you can always go back to your old ways

[Confusion07]

Please don't listen to my idiotic sister. There are plenty of ways to lose wieght other than an eating disorder... so I wouldn't relapse if I were you. I'm prayin' for you, me and my sister both are, even if she won't admit to it!!!

[sittingonacornflake]

yes, but praying can be so hard.

it's so hard not to procrastinate or contradict yourself.
i don't know what the hell i'm doing when i binge or let myself go.

[amr3149]

Don't relapse, just start exercising in a HEALTHY, NORMAL way...And don't even think about starting to eat less of one thing or another, we all know how that ends up...

Good Luck hun, and pm me if you need anything.

[Basch]

hey, ima guy, and no im not gay, i found this site from a friend of mine, and her and i have been wondering... why?

i mean, whats the point? you girls are unbelievably pretty, why change that by eating then throwin in all up, i mean as a guy, i find that quite distastful, and for people to actually have a forum on this... its even more disgusting... please, for the love of god, stop trying to vomit to make yourself look better, you girls look great, you girls have a great personality, im 17 right now, and i know that all girls are beautiful, and if a guy doesn't fall for you... then it is their loss... but for your own health stop trying to be bulimic, it's terrible for your esophagus, and its terrible for your stomach, it's proven that you can get stomach ulcers in your stomach, it's so painful its not even funny...

any man would think that what you girls are doing is wrong, and any man who thinks that what you are doing is good, and that you should change in that way... isn't a man... he isn't worthy of you, he isn't worth the time, if he loves you, then he wouldn't want you to change in anyways - shape - or form...

~Jared Hansen~

[FallenAngel321]

hey, ima guy, and no im not gay, i found this site from a friend of mine, and her and i have been wondering... why?

i mean, whats the point? you girls are unbelievably pretty, why change that by eating then throwin in all up, i mean as a guy, i find that quite distastful, and for people to actually have a forum on this... its even more disgusting... please, for the love of god, stop trying to vomit to make yourself look better, you girls look great, you girls have a great personality, im 17 right now, and i know that all girls are beautiful, and if a guy doesn't fall for you... then it is their loss... but for your own health stop trying to be bulimic, it's terrible for your esophagus, and its terrible for your stomach, it's proven that you can get stomach ulcers in your stomach, it's so painful its not even funny...

any man would think that what you girls are doing is wrong, and any man who thinks that what you are doing is good, and that you should change in that way... isn't a man... he isn't worthy of you, he isn't worth the time, if he loves you, then he wouldn't want you to change in anyways - shape - or form...

~Jared Hansen~

Basch is right if a guy thinks that a girl with an OD is good then he obviously DOES NOT deserve to be with you!!!
plus also its true wat he says about stomach ulcers!!!! i have a friend and she says it hurts!!!!! and if i could get a pic of her face on here i'd show you it....... its just scary as!!!