Bulimia is hell

[pearljamx12]

Hi everyone , I'm new here. Ive been struggling with bulimia since I was 16... I'm almost 24 and I feel I've wasted so much of my life to binging purging and restricting. Not just have I lost time, but money, friends family, my teeth are rotting my hair is thinning and I overal feel like a creature that's existing purely day by day with no true meaning. I hate the time i spend hiding this dark secret, everyone on the outside thinks I have it all together when I'm crumbling inside. Not to mention I was diagnosed with bipolar a year ago which makes life even more enjoyable ....! Not! Sorry for the negitive post, but I'm so sick of living this way. At the same time it brings me so much comfort at least...for a while. Can you relate?

[bulimiargh]

Welcome to WE! I can indeed relate to the hell of bulimia ... I hope you find the support you need on here :3

[pearljamx12]

Thank you for the welcome hope your day is going to be a good one... I'm already fighting the urge to binge.... Funny how we always say it's our last time.....

[Hungryhungryhannah]

Hey, I totally can relate! I've had bulimia for 5ish years and major depression for about one year- so I know how much it sucks. (Although I can't relate to the highs of manic depression., which must be really tough) I've just started getting help, I didn't really ask for the help, I got dumped in a psych ward, but I'm so glad now that it's happened. I really encourage you to get the help you need and deserve! X

[Hershey]

uhh Hell yes I can. It's taken so much time out of my life. At one point I would rather b/p than go out with friends. I wouldn't even text people cause I didn't want to waste my energy on that kind of stuff. Needed all my strength to use my stomach muscles to purge. FUCKING DISASTER.

Plus I have a lot of hospital debt because of bulimia (purge type) and over exercising---cardiac ablations are hella expensive yo.

No more debbie downer though!! I'm going through recovery.

Join me, my friend :P

[prettygirls_makegraves]

Hello! You are most certainly not alone in this thought. I try not to think about how much money I have wasted, where I would be now if I had never picked this up. It truly is a hellish experience beyond that of just the physical tolls...I have been through therapy a few times now and relate to everyone thinking I have it together. Even my doctors felt confident that I has beaten it this time but like all the times before it's come creeping back into my life. I think this board helps a lot though, just seeing that you aren't the only one, that others have survived through things just like you is very comforting. all the best x

[Queen_mab]

Welcome darling, I hope you'll find some comfort here with us don't ever forget though that YOU CAN FIGHT IT. And beat it. It takes time and courage but at any point in your life you can take the decision to go nails and teeth against it and give yourself a better life. The moment you start believing you actually can is the one everything can change for the better

[pearljamx12]

Thanks so much everyone, all your kind words really helped me tonight. Sometimes I feel so alone and this forum proves I'm not alone at all..... I look back on the years and now see how much time I spent covering up everything. It's sad really, when people say how good you look, pretty even, and you stare back at them thinking, really?? I just spent a whole day throwing up food with a toothbrush down my throat. I don't feel pretty at all. My heart goes out to all of you x

[Ana13]

Welcome to the group and I really hope this group helps you! (Has helped me a lot since its the only place where I can finally share thoughts people abt my ed) And I totally get abt the compliments and the insecurities...Anyways, stay strong and know that you have people to talk to in this forum who won't judge u at all cuz we have all been through the shits that ed puts you through 😕