sorry ive havent been here for lomg time but this is the first time ive purged in 3 months,since i lost my baby and since its a yearof my best friend ho also had ann ED died, iven purged 2 times today...ivebeen really depressed and i still want to recover butt some bad memories still make meme puke to my stomach....((

how do i deal with the pain ??? if i domnt drink alcohiol i have to puke or puke and tehn alcojhol i know it doesnt change anything but makes men feel beter for a while.

i miss my friend rachel who killed herslef and i wish i could have baby but i lost it