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  1. 10-31-2014 #1
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    I'm feeling a lot of pain today. Remembering another year that I remember the 5th loss of my angel babies. I've had miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy.
    It never gets easier. I always wanted to be a mum. It took me years of medications, ivf treatment and huge amount of self funded money to even get close to conceiving.
    The only time I have ever been close to recovering bulimia is when I was pregnant. I forced myself to keep nutrients for the baby.
    After going through ivf, getting pregnant and finding out my fiancé had been cheating on me for a year I lost it.
    He was abusive already, alarm bells should have rang when he hit me several times. But I stayed. I always stayed.
    After the last miscarriage this time last year I promised myself I would leave.
    I did leave, but months later.
    Everyday I wonder what it would have been like to be a mum to those beautiful angel babies. My heart still breaks when I see a family playing with their children at the beach.
    I returned to my escort work, I returned to my binge eating and constant purging, just to numb myself for a little while.
    I try to put on a smile and move forward but the memories will always be there - and that's what hurts the most. Remembering.

    Sorry for the rant.
    Love to all xxx

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    No words but hugs to you. I have an angel babe too. My heart is sad with you. You are a Mum, always. You are. Hope you may one day be blessed with your heart's desire. Thinking of you

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    I'm gonna pm you but I'm just leaving my love here too <3

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