Hi everyone
Ive been struggling with anorexia for 4 years now. These past two years, i have neither recovered nor relapsed. I am constantly judging my body. When i eat, i feel guilty because i could be fasting. When i starve, i feel guilty for hurting my body. Right now, as i am scared to go in public (i am already late to a class i should be taking) because there is a bump in my tummy. Because i binged yesterday.

My stats,
160 cm (5'3 i think)
48 kg (106 pounds)
Lowest: 45 kg (99 pounds)

I want to be 99 pounds again. But my mental health... I am losing it.