clattnow

[clattnow]

I put a thread on here I did want people to respond to it you have all read it I would like you to comment on it. What is the point of my writing a new thread when no-one comments. I have commented on your threads. I think they are good and may I say a great site. Please can I have some support from you lovely people. Clattnow.

[thebeautifulbonesiwant]

What kind of support do you need lovely? There is always people here to talk to xx message me

[clattnow]

Thank you thebeautifulbonesiwant, Just want to be able to eat again and go the target weight I have set myself which I sometimes do but then panic when I hit the target. What would you do? My friend says hide the scales but I feel I cannot do that.

[thebeautifulbonesiwant]

Lets private chat. I will be your support. This is possible! We are all far stronger than we think. You will be okay, Be safe x

[clattnow]

how does one private chat? I would rather stay on the forums and chat there if you do not mind? Thank you for your help.

[thebeautifulbonesiwant]

That's absolutely fine how has your day been today?

[clattnow]

I did send you a private message did you get it just wondering? Thank you for asking. I had a tense day over food I got on the scales at tea-time and had gone up a pound I did not like that much but was still under my target. My husband did not bring the food bag in time at tea-time so I got hungry. I am afraid to say when it finally arrived I could not cope then he brought in extra food and I just panicked and put it all back. I hate having to eat as I know the next day I will have to exercise to burn it off and that exhausts me. I do not like eating during the day. Apart from the food I had a nice walk and I have made a good friend in you. How did your day go where you able to deal with your weight? How did your head feel? It is mind over body last year I had no issue with my weight I accepted my goal and only got weighed once I used the tape measure instead. Maybe I should go back to that I know the scales are killing me slowly. I think about it all day all long and I think it is destroying my marriage. Perhaps you can relate to all I have said? I find my husband bossy over it and pressurizing. I wish he would lay off and then maybe I would come forward a bit. Also hide the scales but focus on my clothing and making sure it fits. I will stop now. A long winded response I apologise. I can see you love your bones I love my bones too.

[clattnow]

post script my head feels dead most of the time and when I use the scales it wants to scream inside my head but it is also saying for God Sake what are you doing to yourself? You look wrong. It is as though there is a block inside the head and my mechanism has gone wrong. My body screams in pain with sore ribs at times. I like the taste of food but do not like the aftermath. I see fat people and think I will end up like them. They are damaging themselves. My husband is growing fat because of me. Why was I born? What use am I?