Harm fantasies

[Damiatin]

Does any one else have these?

[DerseDreamer]

Very frequently.
I often find myself imagining situations where I would be severely injured (or inflict it myself)
A lot of times I don't even realize what I'm doing and go so deep into my thoughts that I go into a sort of daze where I just look at everything around me and assess how much damage I could cause. It's sick, twisted, and I am deeply ashamed of it- I've been mostly self harm free (nothing serious enough that I would consider it a relapse) since october and I really don't want to start from square one.
It's tough, especially if you're someone who has be doing it for a long time. I hope you're able to resist acting on these "fantasies" (haha, i find a sort of dark humor in the fact that we're able to refer to them as fantasies while most would be appalled and frightened by such thoughts )
I'm here if you ever need someone to chat with either about these thoughts, or just want a little friendly conversation- I'm kinda a loser who doesn't have many friends, so conversation is always welcome
Have a lovely evening and be safe xoxo

[Damiatin]

Thanks for that. My mind tends to wonder off and imagine all the ways I could be seriously hurt, ranging from being on a bus and it crashing to having the person walking by me in the street stab me to self mutilation. I never die in these scenarios but they are all life threatening.

I know what you mean about calling it a 'fantasy' but the word fits because I'm not scared of it. I kind of hope for it to happen.