Need support

[ket]

Hey. Im here reaching out for someone I can message with or Skype or whatever. I have been fighting my ed for so many years but have been semi recovered for a fair few months. Im going through grief due to a death and its caused a massive relapse. I am back to not being able to eat even the smallest amount without feeling ill and stressed and am so weak I can barely stand. I need this not to be a full relapse, I have to get better. I need to keep my strength to look after my other half as his grief is far greater than mine, I can't add this stress to him. I need help and have no one in my life to turn to.

[misdiagnosed]

You are welcome to message me. What you are experiencing sounds so painful. An eating disorder thrives in darkness. When the lights of joy and hope have gone out, it is free to walk around, hurting and destroying us and those we love by filling us with despair. Crowd out anorexia with other things you really do enjoy. Things that you CAN enjoy. Don't worry so much about forcing yourself to eat things you don't want. Try and do the things you know that make you happy. Take a walk on a beautiful day, see a movie, go on a drive - or whatever it is for you. Suck in as much joy and light and love and happiness as you can. An eating disorder can't exist in an environment like that. Don't forget about yourself and your own needs. I think we always think that serving others is good as much as we can do it. But when you are traumatizing your own soul by ignoring your needs, you are destroying yourself, and nobody destroyed can help others long term.

God Bless and Good Luck

[ket]

Thank you very much for your kind supportive reply