I'm here because after being purge-free for more than 3 years something I consider catastrophically threatening to my mental well-being happened and with a snap of a synapse in my brain I found myself leaning over the toilet bowl again. I don't find anything glamorous about ana or mia but as someone who has endured both (ana to a much greater extent) for almost 10 years, I admit it has a tendency to feel as if it is fixing something. I mostly need someone to talk to about my issues and how my ED ties into it. Family & Friends knew about my past struggle but I'm almost ashamed to bring it up again.