been in recovery for years now, technically speaking...but the funny thing about recovery is that they never tell you it'll never be the same as it was prior to having been diagnosed with an eating disorder.
my eating habits were always off...for as long as i can remember...but i started really recognizing i had a problem years ago...and i guess all i'm saying is that i just can't innocently excuse things anymore, and that it still looms in the back of my head sometimes...and how that sucks. not asking for advice here, just rambling.
i drink more than i eat...and that's certainly a problem, yet i excuse that because it's so easy to as a young adult surrounded by lowkey alcoholics, y'know? it's so normalized.
so i just don't think about it.