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[Under120]

Ok...so what is everyones story? Why are you all here....I'll start I guess. MY names Mel, I'm 22, 23 on OCTOBER 14th! woohoo! I've struggled with weight issues since I was 14. Ive gone to all sorts of measures to lose weight. Starving myself, purging, even using Ipecec to make myself throw up. I've gotten super thin, at one point my BMI was 16. But I have never been able to maintain my low weight. The last time I gained the weight back, I had to. I was pregnant, and I knew that I needed to make sure my baby was healthy. So now, my little girl is 6 months old, and I'm back to my old habits. I want to get my weight back to below 120. That's my goal to start off...I eventually want to be at 110. I'm about 5'9" so I think thats a good goal.

So I want to know about all of you...what brings you all here? Don't be shy. These sites are wonderful places to find friends and support. But the site needs our support to keep it going. So tell us about yourself!

[muffin]

Well.. I could answer here to indtroduce myself then I guess..

First of all; hi! I came to the old forum, but it seemed to be rather dead. Hopefully it will get back on its feet.

Anyways; I'm Mari. I'm 17 years old (18 in december, woho!) and live in Norway. I've been self-injuring for about 5 years, self-harming as long as I can remember. From I was 13 to 16,5 I suffered from anorexia, but now again I catch myself in skipping meals more and more often. And I don't even know if I want to change theese bad habits or not. It makes me feel good, yet so ashamed. I haven SI'ed since July this year, and hope I've managed to quit. Still, I will allways look at myself as a Self-Harmer. Not in the meaning that a self-harmer is WHO I am, but it's a disease I'll have to live with for the rest of my life. It's like any other addiction, like alcoholism, it's a disease. (Well, thats MY opinoin anyway. ) I'm diagnosed with major depression and have tried AD's, but they made me ill. I still have my up's and down's, but I'm starting to get better

Why I'm here? Maybe to show people that it IS possible. Things can and will change.

[lpzoey]

my name is zoey---kinda old to this site ----i havent been on in a while and everythings changed--i am 31 - will be 32 in dec. i have had eating disorders for 20 years---about 6 months ago i was a size 16----now a size 6!!!!!!! yepeeee for me --lol!!!!!!!not done though---want to be a 2 or 4 !?!? ---where everyone at??????????????????

[Under120]

a 16 to a 6!?! thats awesome! how did you do it?

[blue*eyes]

I just turned 34. OUCH!!! Anyway, I've had an eating disorder for about 2 years now. I have 7 kids. 3 of my own and 4 of my husbands. I was married for 14 years to the most controlling man alive. I finally got out and am now very happy with my current husband of 4 months. I love to binge! Hate to purge, but it has to be done. I'm on a yo yo of around 118 to 120. I want to be around 113. Doesn't seem to happen though. No matter what I do, or how long I go without eating. It's really hard to binge with that many kids and a husband who is very concerned with my disorder. I don't want to stop though. I can't imagine being heavy again. I was up to about 200 3 years ago. It even makes me sick when I step on the scale and it says 121!!! I just started taking laxatives again. Don't know if they really work though.

[Nattie]

Well I used to post a lot on this site last year but it seems my account was deleted. Anyway, my name is Natalie and I am 24 years old...25 next month. I have been struggling with weight issues since I was 14 or 15. I hate that I am not one of those girls who can eat whatever they want and not gain an ounce. I have started back at the gym to slim down some more. I currently weigh 110 and I want to be 105ish. I am getting married May 5, 2007 and my wedding dress is a size 2 and I am sooo afraid that it won't fit. I am frustrated because everyone always says "you're so thin you don't have to lost weight" but they don't know what it's like to struggle with weight issues, to think you're never thin enough. So that's why I am here....

[blue*eyes]

I know what you mean. I just got married 5 months ago and my dress was a 2 also. I have my wedding pictures on my desk at work for added encouragement. It scares me that I won't be that thin ever again. I was 110 the day I got married and now I'm struggling to stay at 118. It really sucks!!!!

[Lady JJ]

Hello I am new.

[Invisable_Fat_n_Lonely]

Heyy guyz, i just truned 17y/o . Itz good to be back here i know about this place for like 3 years now i had n account here but then i moved n forgot my name n password now im back cuz i love WE itz the best . It all began when i was 6 years old i started making myslef sick vey morining befor school, it was right after my parents divorced, i didnt like that it took for ever to come back up so i just hardly eat now, so i dont get the feeling to throw it up or feel gulity. I dont know were i learned it from at 6y/o but it changed my life forever. I truly dont think i have a problem though cuz im not skinny at all, i just have more self control than people i know. i just dont want to be a 200 pound girl no one looks at n just takes up extra space in a room .
sorry but i feel like this is my diary sometimes.

[blue*eyes]

Ok, I am not looking forward to the Holidays at all!! I've been so proud of my self cause I haven't b/p in about 2 weeks I don't like living like that. But I've become more ana than anything. It's such a struggle right now. Today is a carry in here at work. And of course you can smell the food through out the whole office. I have got to be strong!!! All I can do is picture myself getting fatter and fatter by just the smell. It seems to be working so far but it's only 8:30 in the morning! I've got 7.5 more hours to go And of course we've got my in-laws dinner on Thursday and my parents on Saturday. That is going to be more hard than anything else cause everyone is watching me like a hawk! Any suggestions?????????