Has Anybody Recovered?

[gem]

I'd really like to hear someone who has recovered's story - I know that's not everybody here's goal, but it's mine and I keep f*cking it up every time I make a go of it.

I still want to lose 8lbs, but I dont want to do it mia, I want to go back to dieting etc and do it properly. mia doesnt help me lose weight anyway, only keep it off.

every couple of weeks, i manage to have a few good days where i dont vomit at all, or i find something that keeps my away from it for a while, but i always end up going back.

I've only been mia for 9 months, i desperately want to end it before it becomes a year, i dont want this to be my life.

There must be a way.

[xAnaWingsx]

I'm actually in recovery, I'm in therapy and I'm left with both the tendencies of ana and mia. Like you, my main goal is to recover of this and set it in my past where it belongs...

The main thing to keep in mind when starting recovery is that it won't be easy, the first week into recovery nearly sent me around the bend more than once, but I made it through month one and today I'm a year, five months, and one day into recovery.

You'll see me posting a lot on the anorexia board asking for tips or just saying that I'm fasting, none of it's a lie. What I post is what I'm doing...

Even though I've came this far, there are still days where I go "okay, I'm giving into ana this week." There are many days that I still cry through lunch and push food around somewhat...

Just remember to stay open with whoever it is you're currently open with, as you go through recovery that number might increase two or three more people but not much.

If you need a chat room that is actually more pro-recovery than anything else go:
chat.healthyplace.com

The first ED room is for all ages and the second is for those 18 and over.

My name on there is Strong Princess.

If you need someone to support you through recovery, then private message me and I'll give you my personal e-mail that I've never given out on here.

Just like when I was anorexic and deep into it I said "anorexics have to stick together in our mission to become perfect and thin" I now say, "those in recovery have got to support one another because we're all we have."

Also remember:
Ana and Mia are stubborn witches and will continue to yell and scream at you throughout recovery. Some days you'll have to give into your ED, but it's not the end of the world when you do. On weak days surround yourself with positive, uplifting people and avoid those that are down and depressed all the time. If you have a friend that can talk you through a meal make sure they are calm because if they're nervous and excited then you won't get anywhere.

Good luck!
xAnaWingsx

[Peachy-Pink]

I really hope that you still come on this forum to see if someone has replied as it has been a while since you posted. I really think there is hope for you. Your only in the early stages and its all about taking that first step....which you have taken by admitting you need to recover. I am in recovery, and Ive learnt that I am going to have bad days where I binge and throw up or starve myself, but I just have to get back on track the next time and try again. It would be an idea to keep a food diary and note down your feelings when you binge and throw up. That way, you can pinpoint your triggers and try and avoid them!

Take care,
Torey

[Suzy]

Hey hun

I have been in the same boat as you, I think I now have a bit more control over it at the moment but it has only been a little over a week but I am feeling positive about it.
I got to a point where if I ate at work I would just stuff and then have to purge and my evenings where a four hour cycle of eating and purging until I said right thats it I can't keep purging made me feel really bad.
I have done lots of research on BMR, starvation mode (where I was and not losing anything) getting out of it and minimum calories required etc. Was quite eye opening.
I had few days where I ate 1000cals to boost my body out of starvation mode and on about day four after putting on couple of pounds (I know it's scary but was worth it) my weight started to come down. I also have found out from a friend that I need to take in a minimum of half my BMR to avoid starvation mode again so I make sure I eat at least that per day and allow very occasionally a bit more but a max of 1000 cals so it is well below my BMR. I also eat six small amounts a day not all in one go to help prevent the full feeling that makes me purge.
I have been steadily losing 1lb a day at moment. I’m now 2lb away from first aim and 5lb away from final aim (not sure if this will be the final final one tho until I get there)
Hope this helps pm me if you need.

Suzy