Finally! Other people to talk to

[Professorana]

I need ED friends. I've been ana and mia off and on for about 8 years. I stopped while I was pregnant (don't ask me how, I guess I just felt too responsible for the baby's health during the pregnancy) but I'm back in the traces and eating about 200-400 cal a day right now. I used to be a twig and I put on 70lbs during the pregnancy. I have already lost 40 but I have 50 more to lose to get to my ideal weight. I hate the mia side of this mess so I'm resisting that as best I can. I'm taking prozac for a serious case of post partum depression and that seems to alter my hunger quite a bit. I can go all day without really feeling hunger which is a huge life saver right now. Otherwise I would be purging--I can't, I have a heart condition from purging for years, I used to use Ipecac before I knew how dangerous that was. I'm here for a lot of reasons but the biggest is that I need ana friends--people that have their heads in the same place as me and people to talk to. I can't talk about this with anybody and all my friends are super fat so I can't starve myself in their company which means I don't see them as much anymore. I can't give this up and I don't want to give this up. I feel so powerful, so controlled so peaceful when I'm empty and starving. I want to stay that way.

[pinkprincessbelle]

I hear u and support u! Hope u r having a better day than me!