stupid question, i know

[Candykiller]

Darlings,
somebody knows, how can purge in quiet?
i really dont like it, and im not used to it a lot.
But if i ate a kind of heavy stuff to relief my mom...or i lost my mind, and i almost die from food, i need it.
Unfortunately, our closet is seperated from the bathroom,
and that gonna be the last thing that i need, that my mom get to know it.
i know, its a really stupid question, but i need some help...

[sarah-charlotte]

hi sweety i hate to say this but will just take time, eventually your body will purge without u having to do anything really, it becomes a reflex and thats when the noise goes. i was bulimic for three years before i could do it - thank god i stopped and am ana again.

[Candykiller]

hmm, yes...
but i dont wanna practise a lot, and dont wanna be a bulimic.
ana is actually more than enough.
so the only thing is mind control, or empty flat...but thats haard

and congratulation after 3years vooow
how, and did u stop?
okey i think u almost not eating, and than dont have to purge.
but its sooo great, half/recovered.

[Professorana]

Sounds nasty and I don't want you to become bulimic but--I found using a toothbrush and not bending over all that far makes things a bit more quite. Drink a lot of water as you are eating so that it comes back up a bit easier. Also, wait about 20 mins after you have eaten so that the food softens and you don't have to strain and gag so hard. It's not a reflex for me anymore but I can still do it fairly easilly.

[sarah-charlotte]

candykiller
"and congratulation after 3years vooow
how, and did u stop?
okey i think u almost not eating, and than dont have to purge.
but its sooo great, half/recovered."

How did i do it? well i got so ill that i nearly died and was put in hospital - that's how/why i recovered from mia. I spent a long time with my head in a bucket stinking of vomit, taking laxies like they were sweeteners and writhing in agony from the stomach cramps. hair fell out, skin turned grey, teeth fell out and still i wouldn't stop. whats funny is that when i was mia my weight wasn't even that low - 106lb average, high compared to my 90lb ana weight! but it was the mia that got me in the end. i can starve for years and still not end up in that state, even at my lowest ana weight i wasnt ill, i didnt feel ill. even though iv spent the last year in recovery (its not even been a year as i cheated for the first few months!) my desire to have ana back was overwhelming, i felt it everyday. i guess that's why i feel so at peace now its back in my life. ana has been a major part of my life for nearly 10 years now, mia stopped by for 3 years and fucked up everything!

[amr3149]

Purging is incredibly unsafe and unhealthy.

Try exercising a whooole lot instead. Just burn off all those calories. You get in better shape too!! Plus you feel GOOD and proud of yourself after that, while as purging (at least for me) makes you feel bad and dirty afterwards. And it usually gave me a headache.

But, if you must...try pushing hard on your stomach while your finger is down your throat. And go slow, wiggling just one finger. You won't be as likely to choke that way.

[Candykiller]

thanks for the tipps and the replies.
i feel that i can do it easier, 'cause my tammy dont like heavy food, so it purge up easily.
i tried the toothbrush yesterday...cause i almost died, wasnt worked for me...its ok by original.
i will only do it, if i lost my mind,,,and eating heavy.
dont wanna be a mia
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