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[tasha4448]

Hi. I really need some help and advice. I desperately want to loose weight but find it extremely difficult to be sick. I obviously pay close attention to what i eat whenever possible but my family and friends are noticing that i don't eat very much. Because of this i'm having to eat but i feel horrible afterwards. I've been looking for pills on the internet but i'm not sure which ones to get. I'm really unhappy with myself and my body but i don't know what to do. Sometimes i find myself binge eating and can't help myself. If anyone has any advice please let me know.

Thank you.

[ebbholm]

If you don't already consider yourself to be ill- I don't think you should become ill, either. It truly is a living hell. But if anyone would know how it feels to be unhappy with your body it's me, and I know that that is unbearable too. So I think (if you're not already ill) that you should try to lose weight more healthily.
xx

[tasha4448]

I was ill about 6months ago but i got past it. It was awful at the time, all i ever thought about was my image and food. I still wasn't happy with the way i looked but i feel even worse now. I just wish i could be happy with myself. People seem to always be around making sure i'm eating and there's only so many excuses i can make. I suppose i'm aware if the risks but i'm willing to take them if there's a slight chance it will make me happy.

How do you cope? xxx

[ebbholm]

Well- I mean. Do you really want to go back? Did you really feel better back then? Because being ill doesn't change the fact that you're unhappy with yourself. On the contrary- it makes it your obsession!

I'm actually an ana and not bulimic, but I suppose I just make it my life, you know?
The feeling of being empty- it's just such a high for me. Not all the chocolates, pizzas or cheese in the world could replace that feeling. So I try to focus on that rather than the headaches, the dizzyness and the nausia etc. xx

[tasha4448]

Thank you for understanding. I tried to tell my friend but she just judges, worries and patronises. I wouldn't say i was happy but compared to now, i felt better. I really need some advice on how to keep it from my mum. She watches me all the time. Any ideas? xxx

[ebbholm]

Of course, I'm the last person in the world who should be judging ANYONE!
Well- for the moment I'm telling my father I'm feeling sick. I also try not to be at home around lunch and dinner, saying I'll eat at a friends place. When he does make me eat (like today he made me a sandwich) I just say thank you and take it into my room and hide it under my bed (and throw it away later). Hhe's not home that often, though. So keeping it from him is not that hard. It's keeping it from my friends that's difficult! xx

[tasha4448]

Thank you so much. If i have to eat anything which types of foods do you think would have least effect on my weight? Do you still have energy to exercise. I feel weak alot of the time but really need to push myself. I'm terrified as to what i'm going to over christmas! I can't get it out of my head. Surely someone will notice. How do you get past this period? xxx

[ebbholm]

Well, light-noodles usually don't show that much effect at all. Peas, cucumbers, tomatos, shrimps. Those sort of things. I'm practically a vegan (sometimes I put a tiny bit of milk in my tea, but that's about it.) and that kind of narrows the choices down a bit. But basically fruits and vegetables. Maybe broccolli and cabbage! xx

[ARose4Me7305]

I don't reccomend trying to BECOME a bulimic to lose weight.

Makes me sick. *No pun intended*

[tasha4448]

I posted this, asking for help, not expecting judgement. You make it sound so simply and easy!