hey, im jodie nd i need ur help?

[Jodie18]

hello!.. yer im jodie, im 18 and live in britain. erm yer not all tht interesting sadly..
ive been trying to think of ways to compel u to help me, catch ur intrerest, but basically im doing a prodject in art about " aneroxia". fairly basic i thought girls not eating.. but the more i research the more i see its a .. a being, a thing!i want to portray aneroxia to my best ability but i just dont have the tools.. the knowleadge, or the exsperiance and im hoping someone can help me with an insight.. to help me see through the eyes of a person entined with aneroxia.. ?

thank you
much love ! xoxoxoxoxo

( edits * ) damn it im a twat .. my email is griffiths90@hotmail.com (Y)

or if u wanna see whats im like add me on facebook jodie griffiths ... erm my dp is a girl faces with blonde hair brown eyes and pulling a gooner face because thts how i roll :P

[Candykiller]

so u visited this site, cause your project...

i did an art project too, like 2years ago, with anorexia/bulimia...yes, i dont really know, that is possible too see through, when u havent got it...

naturaly, i did it, 'cause my friend, who was near to death...to realize something, i tried...that wasnt working.
and when i realized it too, i was in the same boat.
when i was doing it, i wasnt hungry, cause my work looked like sugarsweet...
sooo becareful with your projectD

[pinkprincessbelle]

I really think this is inappropriate for you to be here. This group is a support group for people with Eating Disorders not some site where anybody can come on and 'study' us whether it be for a project or whatever! I can't believe that you are on this site for a school project! Does your school allow this?

Sorry to sound harsh but if you are not eating disordered and not here for that kind of support then you don't belong here! We have to keep some sort of dignity!

[Jodie18]

princess. fair enough if u dont want to help then thats fine but u rejecting me because i dont have aneroxia .. well personally that strikes me as predujist. yes my college let me study anorexia why shudnt they? u make it sound like its something to be ashamed of all dark and dindgy. and im not studying you, though it is interesting to note that i have no judgement on what people but but yet here i am being judged ? i put up my facebook, my msn.. im not studying i just think its a shame that i have to get a mate to pretend she struggles with it.. beasically a big old cliche.. but u no what i think uve showed me a defensive side that will help me with my work .. thanks x

oh and if u took the time to see me ud see im 6 foot and skinny .. i used to get teachers coming up to me in class and tell me to eat, i went to boarding school and got forced to eat by my matron and sent to the doctor twice a week .. and i new tht them always making a fuss made me not want to eat, to give them sumthing to really have a go at.. no one belived i was eating even my own mother wud cry?? so u may think i am some hard faced person "studying" u but im also a teenage girl and im not tryin to be offensive and im sorry if u took offensive.

[pinkprincessbelle]

I'm not trying to be mean but I get a bit defensive when 'outsiders' pry into my (and my friends) stuff. Yes I am ashamed I hate being this way I wish I could be normal haha what is that!

I'm not trying to upset you but I am a bit protective of our little community!

[Jodie18]

its ok im not offended i just think surly this " community " idea dosnt help u individually get better ? and theres no need to be defensive about me. x

.. and i might b wrong but judging from some of ur other comments u posted before..ur not really thats ashamed .. and u shudnt be at all, but i do nt understand y u make out u are ?

[pinkprincessbelle]

No I am I hate this ed and how it makes me feel.........I'm going through a 'maybe it's time for another shot at recovery' phase! Sorry!

[Candykiller]

You know girls,

Princess, this is an open site, not for only EDs...everybody can come here, read our comments about everything, and if any media stuff would come here, and we would see in the television our comments, we couldn't do anything 'cause its an open site and theres no official password to read our stuff.
So it's not a little community, for us yes. But for the others nope.
And it's possible that Jodie can find a person who wanna help her, or living at the same place, or can meet. Theres a lot of kinda ppl, you dont know what do they want.
And i see that, Jodie's message is not too annoying for the others, if it would be that, here gonna be a lot of comments.


So i think it's ok Jodie, that u came here to try something, who knows...
What kinda art project r u working on?

[Jodie18]

well its a peice influenced by " exquisite corpse" with is the idea of putting two words together and creating an image.. and the two words i picked outta this hat were " anorexia " and " keyboard" so for my final peice im doing a prodject of showing how the " keyboard" is a computer input that connects people to forums such as this and documenting a girl or ( the 10% ) males thts suffer with anorexia basically the final peice is a colllarge of a girl and the things tht define her that i have connected with thru the interent ..
i appericate ur kind and sensable words ! i wasnt exspecting it lol... it dosnt matter now though as im about to sit down and start creating a fictional characther .. im sorry if i caused any offense and il try to be as accurate as i can be , and i truly hope u guys find .. an end to anorexia .. and just stay upbeat, be safe ! xoxoxox


oh and one thing outta curiousity.. my faveroute song is radiohead's creep and partically the line " i dont care if it hurts i wanna have control i want a perfect body i wanna perfect soul "is one tht has always been almost part of me .. can sumone pls just tell me is tht it.. control ?