Hello there everybody!

[Cicely]

Hello all. I'm new here.

Just recently, life has been much more stressful for me, driving my anorexia further. A concerned friend of mine alerted my school's Early Action Program, and (on my 17th birthday, no less) I was forced to talk to a school counselor about it. My parents were notified, I got to have awkward and annoying talks with them, and they told me that if I didn't stop losing weight, they would force me into psychotherapy. I know my school thinks they are helping, but all they have done is made everything worse.

I'm beginning to go more than 24 hours without any food or water, obsessively weighing myself about 5 times a day, and I'm caring less and less about school as the days go by. I've lost faith in my school, and no longer spend time on work that I should be doing. I sometimes drink, but mostly I smoke cigarettes or get high. I know it's a devastating process, but it's so amazingly tempting to push myself further, to lose more weight, to have control over everything and yet still be so utterly helpless.

So here I am, looking for support because I don't want to lean on my friends too heavily. They've been great to me, and they don't deserve to have me pulling them down.

So hello, everyone. I look forward to getting to know you all.

[petite_mais_dodue]

it sucks having it as a teen.
i remember nothing of year 9 and only parts of yr 10, cos i was focused only on losing weight.
i remember throwing up in cubicles and throwing out food :S

lean on me whenever you need
xx

[Cicely]

You've no idea how much that means. :]